Life is a bowl of goodness!

Ok so I don't remember exactly how it came up but while talking with Jeff last Saturday (or maybe Friday) he said "Life is a bowl of goodness, all we have to do is lift our spoons and partake." Profound wisdom...haa haa.. it is true though!! This last couple of weeks has been really tough for me. I have a lot on my plate right now, what with school, volunteering, and a church calling. I have been feeling like a complete failure because I wasn't doing everything perfectly for everyone. I let myself get down and let things slide for a while. This included not doing homework for one class that is not that hard and struggling through homework for my Access class which is extremely hard for me. I felt like because I could not do everything I did not want to do anything. This feeling was made worse when I looked at my midterm grade and realized I was getting 40% in my Access class. On Friday after class I was walking home thinking I just needed to drop the class so that I did not get a 'F' but I was not sure when i could possibly retake it. I was in tears by time I reached my apartment and feeling completely hopeless and like a failure as an adult. I mean isn't every 26 year old supposed to be able to perfectly juggle their life!! HA! It was then I realized that just because I had dropped the ball did not mean I could not pick it back up! I also realized that if I gave up on this class I was taking the easy way out and I would that much more inclined to take the easy road for the rest of my life. So I did the only logical thing....I got on my knees and prayed. After praying I got on my computer and got to work. I worked over 10 hours this weekend on my project, there were times I was ready to throw it out the window but with the help of my Heavenly Father and the encouragment of my roomate I turned it in. I got a 9 out of 10 and the compliments of my instructor! I was so completely thrilled!! I felt like I could conquer anything at the point! It may seem like a simple silly thing but I had pushed myself and I had suceeded! I know that with my Heavenly Father's help and with the great people he has blessed me with in my life I can do anything. I just have to keep going, and when I drop the ball I have to pick it up and try again. So back to the main point. Life really is a bowl of goodness. We are all sitting at the table but it is up to us to decide if we will partake. We must dig in with whatever means we have, silver spoon, fingers, or just slurp it up!!
So today take action and enjoy your "bowl of goodness"!!!

The snow is falling up!!

So today while sitting in my highly entertaining Intermediate Accounting class, I happened to glance out the window and what did I see....snow...falling up!!! It was quite the odd experience after watching for a second I realized it was just the way the wind was hitting the building that made it look that way...It kind of makes me sad that there is more snow. I went to Utah last weekend and there was not any snow on the ground which made me happy. I am so ready for spring this year. More so than I have ever been before. I decided it is because I spent the summer in California with the sun and now my body is craving it!! Ok in all honesty i should not complain. In my head I know that lots of snow brings a beautiful and green Idaho spring so that is what I keep telling myself every time I look out the window and see.....snow falling up.

The joy of a Rexburg winter!

Winters in Rexburg are always hard. There is the constant snow, below zero temperatures, and the ever present wind chill. This winter was proving to be an exception to that rule....until last night. It snowed....and snowed....and snowed! So much for my hopeful thinking that spring would arrive early. Don't get me wrong we need the snow and I am glad it came because it will bring my beautiful Idaho spring. Well the real reason I wrote this is to tell of my adventures getting to the Stake meeting we had tonight. When we went to get to the car all of the doors had frozen shut!! There were 5 of us girls. We managed to get one door open after much effort and I climbed in. I tried unlocking the doors from the inside and after a few minutes of trying I manged to get the rear passanger side unlocked as well. In the mean time Destiny is scraping the window which are so covered in ice we thought the scraper was going to break. (I think she did end up chipping it) By this time we were running seriously late for our meeting so we decided to just climb in. Natalie who was driving had to climb in the passanger side which was quite an amazing feat!! Considering the size of her center console. The rest of us piled in and off we went...sliding all the way! It was such an adventure, there was a lot of giggling and squeeling. And that my friends is one of the many joys of a Rexburg winter!

The Holidays

So holidays around my house are usually pretty uneventful. Enjoyable but uneventful. This year was the same but also different somehow. The nice thing is having my Brother Greg home, up until last year he was living in Jackson Hole running his own business. I guess the stress made a huge difference. He moved into my Mom's house and my Mom now lives with my Grandma. It is like having a whole new Brother! He calls just to talk and he does sweet random things. My Brother and I used to fight alot and we still get on each others nerves but maybe it is just us growing up and realizing what is important in life. Anyhow it was fun to hang out with him and my Sister in Law Daryle. Christmas was nice just family playing games and sledding. It is crazy to think that is is our 5th Christmas without my Dad and usually it is hard but we got through it....as a family. I guess it takes really being home to remind me that this is what life is all about....family. Sometimes they drive me crazy and I want to just have my OWN life, but I need the balance...and occasionally I need to come Home.

Frustration

So tonight I lost 50$ of my Mother's money!!!! She is being cool about it and told me not to worry but still 50$!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That is so much money to me! I just feel like a complete idiot, honestly how do I manage to do things like this! I know everyone makes mistakes but more often then not that person is me. I am always looseing things...it is like important things are repelled from me. I lose my keys almost everyday sometimes two or three times. I just forget what I did....I think I have dementia...ok not really but sometimes I feel like I am losing my mind...I proabably set it down somewhere and forgot! I know my Mom will let it slide but honestly I just feel horrible. She should not have to let slide 50$ of my stupidity! I knew when I took it out of her wallet...I just had this funny feeling but I took it anyways...UGGGG!!! 50$!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Down the drain!....I am trying to make myself feel better and I keep thinking that it went to some person who needed it...who wasn't going to get to buy their kids toys for Christmas or something....it is not working though...Joy another thing I get to feel guilty about for the next 40 years....ok I hope it does not take me that long...maybe I will just scrounge up the money and pay her back...yeah...I will pay her back...it is the only way I will feel better. Don't mock me...I know I am crazy.

I like lists....

I don't actually like lists all that much...but recently some people in my life have mentioned the fact that they fulfilled things they "always wanted to do" so I decided to make a list....yes folks this is my bucket list.
In no particular order....

1. Swim with Sting Rays in the Caman Islands.
2. Go to the Caman Islands
3. Go scuba diving
4. Own a salon
5. Graduate college with a bachelors degree
6. Ride the carriage around Temple Square during Christmas time.
7. Go to Europe
8. Go to a Foreign Country
9. Do a loopty loop in an airplane
10. Go to all the major Church History sites
11. Go to some major Civil War sites
12. Go to New York and see the Statue of Liberty
13. Go to Disneyland
14. Go parasailing

Please note I reserve the right to change this list at anytime....:)

So yeah those are a few of the things I want to do in my life. They are really just random things but I think that is the point. Now at least someday when I get to do one of them (or hopefully all) I can say "I just did one of the things that I have wanted to do all my life" and when that day comes I will just smile inside...

Reflection

Well it is finals week and that always makes me think about the semester. This semester has been one of the best!! It is kind of amazing...Let me start earlier...Last winter semester I had a very hard time. I felt like I was kind of lost and not sure where I wanted to go with my life and I just didn't really care that much. Well after a lot of coaxing Jen (My roomate and Best friend) convinced me to go to California with her and live there for the summer. I did and I am very grateful for it!! I lived near Pasadena. I worked as a caregiver and met the most amazing people, our singles ward was AWESOME!! and most importantly I remebered who I was and what I stand for. While I LOVE BYU-I it can be overwhelming and one can begin to feel like you are never good enough. It begins to wear on you. In California I was reminded that I am a good person and there are always new people to meet and have fun with. It was also a nice boost of confidence to be persued by a few guys. I guess it is kind of hard to define but California was great for me...I did not want to come back to school...at all!! But I did...

This all leads into this semester. My roomates are the greatest set of girls I think I have ever met!! We laugh together, cry together, and eat loads of chocolate together!! I will miss them terribly when they are gone next semester but I know we will be life long friends. I also gained a new close guy friend...I always complain that it is impossible to make new guy friends because of the whole marriage thing but I was mistaken. It has been a great experience getting to know him. In fact I have several new guy friends come to think of it. This semster I have still been a slacker and missed lots of class but not as much as in the past. I am getting better and after all isn't that what it is all about? I still have my days when I feel like I have so much to go...and I do but there are more days when I get those quiet assurances that I am on the right track. I have been reminded why this school is great and such a unique experience. I am learning to enjoy the moment, discovering that savoring each little insignifigant moment makes life so signifigant.

So this is my spill...life is great and I am grateful for the fun times this semester!!

Life is beautiful!




This is Me, Tenika and Jen at Halloween.
I was Recycling, Tenika was a Fairy
Jen was a Ninja!!


Ok you can refer to the above mentioned costumes and add Solveig as a Bunny and Susan as a cavewoman...Soooo much fun!! LOVE these girls!!

This is Me and my roomates plus one....Me, Tenika, Jen, Susan, and Solveig at Guitars Unplugged....soooo much fun!

The first one is Jen's Dad and her little sister Brianna who was my roomate for the summer.
This one is Jen's Mom and her brother Kevin. Thanks for letting me stay with you Family Wall!!!!!! Love you guys!!!



This is part of our singles ward the greatest people!!!



Here we have the AMAZING Holly!! She took me swimming in the ocean for the first time in my life and taught me all about sas!